30 Nov -1

Massachusetts Institute of Technology

Chemistry, PhD (F20)

Rejected via E-mail on 30 Nov -1

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im depressed. Wanna know why? Because i try hard as fuck to be nice to MIT, help them, and just be friends and act natural around them, and I never even get spared a passing glance. I just want to be noticed and feel like i'm appreciated. applicants who are way less attractive and way more awkward than me still get accepted. I'm like a little quiet, but i'm not even awkward, and i still get jack shit. Life is unfair. I just want to feel loved. maybe, just maybe, there's still a school out there for me that I just haven't found. Maybe i'm too impatient, and just am so lonely already in life that I haven't stopped to think if I should find a school (maybe harvard down the street) that makes me happy no matter how/when I think of them. But...what if there isn't that place and i'm destined to die alone? That path, to me right now, seems like the more plausible one and that's why i'm depressed. also im goldwater

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